Collab by

Kesha Finesse Murphy

Author Dawn Desiree Banks

Halt Our Minds

Ladybug

End the illusion of lust

Form the mentality with trust …

From the soul of your partner

Lead his anger into wills for you to vanish

You’re a woman of worth before he tarnish’s

The value of your royalty

Kesha Murphy

because of his manipulations

he never promised

not to lay hands on me

when apologizing

Sometimes i just wish, i can levitate

thru the sky

damn times i wish i could learn to just cry

this build up is damaging

rage consuming me

now i'm maddening...

seeing all the twisted

throwing clause in faith......

now its saddening..

Ladybug

And lost in the blinding of love

He promised to treat me like he treated his mother

Now I know I was just another…

One of his punching bags, lost in the game of his tag

Damn I am tired of him wiping my blood with his rag

Trying to control the anger that is building inside me

Demanding he just fall asleep

and die right beside me

I don’t deserve this…

He doesn’t understand what all I have missed out on this

I gave him my heart, he tore it apart

I gave him my soul, when others would treat it like gold

But hell I am not going to question his fate

When it comes time; he will stand before mighty at the gate

Kesha Murphy

but true i'm a woman of God

and i know it's not right to think these thoughts

yes...but as find peace .......

he always find away to beat it out of me.....

i realize why ,i feel deprived.....

governed tactics..

of this surreal life........

aired on televisions..

had us blind in a dream like matter...

into livingTHIS LIFE would be

happily ever after..

planted within our spirit

a perfect picture

since we were kids........

finding a ....spouse and having kids..

with education,which guranteed work.....

they made life look of lavish

elders just told us ..

through it all with faith is all that matter....

now we've gained financial problems

frustration has kicked in....

and not just us anymore ..

we have two kids.....

no one told

him or i how to prepare

for this...

now i'm bleeding and wishing him dead.

from his beating his confusions in my flesh!

Ladybug

And still instead i call it my fault

Finding every reason not to “halt”

My sickening emotions; for the devil’s commotion

But can I really blame the devil for his given cultural spirit

As he was born in love; the almighty, his son the dearest

The whispers in my mind; he says I have to clear it

The television set has become his clearance

To blame…give excuses….calling out his name

Too late; he’s caught up in that state

The republican’s gold plate

Where his mind is full of hate

And he takes it out on me

Where he drank from the devil’s cup and cannot see

I am his targeted enemy

Following violent history

I am his slave lady

Where instead of whips and chains

He is my master; I am his fury

He say’s you gotta get a gun to kill me

And I swirm, and I cry

Asking God to be my alibi

But with God’s word I must abide

So I take a punch to the gut

A punch to the face; in the front

But when will I go…

because I know in the morning he is going to apologize

Kesha Murphy

instead of all the sorries....

lashes..........

confusion

rage

and blames

we must learn to regroup

and bring our minds to a halt !

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All Rights Reserved Copyright © Author Dawn Desiree Banks